Blogging is Getting Hard

I am typing this as I should be typing up other actual blog posts, because I am so behind on my blog. And instead of actually typing and thinking about my exchange, I tend to just stare at my computer screen and just expect words to magically appear.

Why is this so difficult? I don't know. Blogging is about the one thing I seem to be so unmotivated to do. Right now, typing all of this out is fine. Maybe this is just my brain venting to itself, I really have no idea.

I do other things. I practice my guitar, I practice my Spanish, I do my homework, I read my Bible, I clean my room and keep all of my things organized. I have made my bed every single day since I have been here. For the amount of days I've been here (I think 37?), that is probably more times I have made my bed than I otherwise have in my lifetime. All these new healthy habits I am developing, but there's just this one thing that I have to seemingly physically fight with my brain so I actually do it. And that is blogging.

I spend so much time in my house or my room doing absolutely nothing or doing dumb stuff like watching YouTube or sleeping. Time I could be spending blogging. But why would I do that? The real question is, why don't I do that? Why do I lack so much motivation to actually blog? I have 5 posts sitting in my drafts, waiting to be finished. And there are even more that need to be started.

Hopefully my blog will be brought up to date by the end of this weekend, because I don't have much of anything to do or anywhere to go.

Also, Feliz Cumpleanos to my old man. I didn't forget you, Dad- so no need to be shady. I hope you have a great day!

Ok that was my rant/cry for help. Thanks for tuning into my ted talk.